Disclaimer:
This post is very vague.
I'll be using 'you' a lot, and please do not think I am talking about 'you'.
'You' consist of various friends whom I talk to.
These conversations are purely how I decipher 'your' words.
All these are actually connected to a single event. It's kinda difficult to see how, but after some thought, I figured it out. I shall start with the most recent conversation I had, which was last night.
You said, 'XX said XX'. Guess what? I had a horrible dream after that. Not that I blame you, it's purely my imagination that ran away, coupled with something another friend said. End result? Nightmare. But then, I have no say in what others do.
You said, 'humans are selfish, and for your own good, please 'insert action here', it's not easy, but you have to try'. Maybe I should let it go. I know where I stand now, but sometimes I just wonder. Will things be different? I am accoustomed to waiting. I have been waiting.
You asked me, 'what about you?', I said, 'nothing', and you said, 'nothing is good.' Maybe you're right. Nothing is good. I have freedom to do what I want. I was kinda sad that things didn't go your way, but since you seem optimistic, I'll just let it go, for the moment.
You asked me, 'how was your yam cha session the other day?'. It took me a full minute to figure out what you meant. It went well. I think we can actually be friends, contary to what people say. We have to, imagine how you guys would feel if we had a gathering and everyone feels awkward.
You told me, 'flirt all you want'. Frankly speaking, I don't exactly know how to flirt. And I don't know if I am. I just know that I like being around guys, and I'm comfortable around them. I need a crash course in flirting.
You said, 'girls will be jealous when you hang around guys too much'. I grew up around guys. My playmates were guys. I don't have many girl friends, even in primary or secondary school. In college and uni, also more guys than gals. I know of girls who get jealous, I'm sorry, but I can't do anything.
Various conversations date even further back. I am not sure if I am currently living for the past, present or the future. Sometimes I look into the future, and I see what I want to see. Other times, the past seems so much brighter.
There is no main point in this post. There are just too many things on my mind now. I want to get rid of them one by one.
You said, 'your blog is too wordy'. Yes it is, but I write to release, and if I can capture, that's good. When I write, I do not have to face an actual person to say what I want to say. Another reason why I have a bigger open-self in MSN. Why I reveal more.
That's all at the moment, time to move on to other things.
This post is very vague.
I'll be using 'you' a lot, and please do not think I am talking about 'you'.
'You' consist of various friends whom I talk to.
These conversations are purely how I decipher 'your' words.
All these are actually connected to a single event. It's kinda difficult to see how, but after some thought, I figured it out. I shall start with the most recent conversation I had, which was last night.
You said, 'XX said XX'. Guess what? I had a horrible dream after that. Not that I blame you, it's purely my imagination that ran away, coupled with something another friend said. End result? Nightmare. But then, I have no say in what others do.
You said, 'humans are selfish, and for your own good, please 'insert action here', it's not easy, but you have to try'. Maybe I should let it go. I know where I stand now, but sometimes I just wonder. Will things be different? I am accoustomed to waiting. I have been waiting.
You asked me, 'what about you?', I said, 'nothing', and you said, 'nothing is good.' Maybe you're right. Nothing is good. I have freedom to do what I want. I was kinda sad that things didn't go your way, but since you seem optimistic, I'll just let it go, for the moment.
You asked me, 'how was your yam cha session the other day?'. It took me a full minute to figure out what you meant. It went well. I think we can actually be friends, contary to what people say. We have to, imagine how you guys would feel if we had a gathering and everyone feels awkward.
You told me, 'flirt all you want'. Frankly speaking, I don't exactly know how to flirt. And I don't know if I am. I just know that I like being around guys, and I'm comfortable around them. I need a crash course in flirting.
You said, 'girls will be jealous when you hang around guys too much'. I grew up around guys. My playmates were guys. I don't have many girl friends, even in primary or secondary school. In college and uni, also more guys than gals. I know of girls who get jealous, I'm sorry, but I can't do anything.
Various conversations date even further back. I am not sure if I am currently living for the past, present or the future. Sometimes I look into the future, and I see what I want to see. Other times, the past seems so much brighter.
There is no main point in this post. There are just too many things on my mind now. I want to get rid of them one by one.
You said, 'your blog is too wordy'. Yes it is, but I write to release, and if I can capture, that's good. When I write, I do not have to face an actual person to say what I want to say. Another reason why I have a bigger open-self in MSN. Why I reveal more.
That's all at the moment, time to move on to other things.
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